{"id":2524,"date":"2014-01-15T19:07:02","date_gmt":"2014-01-16T00:07:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/susanswanonline.com\/wpress\/?p=2524"},"modified":"2014-01-16T22:34:37","modified_gmt":"2014-01-17T03:34:37","slug":"anxiety-pancakes-life-in-the-middle-of-a-novel-day-two","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/susanswanonline.com\/wpress\/anxiety-pancakes-life-in-the-middle-of-a-novel-day-two\/","title":{"rendered":"Anxiety Pancakes: Life in the Middle of a Novel (Day Two)"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-2527\" alt=\"road-to-damascus\" src=\"https:\/\/susanswanonline.com\/wpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/road-to-damascus.jpg\" width=\"410\" height=\"615\" \/><\/p>\n<p>In my novel, The Dead Celebrities Club, I&#8217;m trying to work out if people are capable of change. I&#8217;ve always believed that people evolve rather than change. But some people do change drastically going right back to St. Paul who was zapped with god&#8217;s power when he was on his way to Damascus to arrest followers of Jesus.<\/p>\n<p>Are these conversions authentic, or delusional? We live in a cynical age. I suspect most of us think someone who has been selfish and unethical is not going to undergo a conversion. And yet why not? Or if not a conversion, how about an evolution&#8211;which is more in keeping with my belief system. That is, I think a spiritual conversion may be as simple as extending your sympathy to the world beyond yourself.<\/p>\n<p>In some ways, this philosophical issue is the least of my problems. It will unfold with the narrative, and my story telling brain will give me the answer.<\/p>\n<p>My more practical issue is to keep writing, as I said yesterday. To put one foot in front of the other and keep moving. How do I do this? I daydream, I make notes, I look at research; then I talk some scenes from my story into a digital recorder and myself or my part-time assistant Mariel transcribes it. While I&#8217;m composing I think&#8211;you idiot, what on earth are you doing? This is absolute crap! You&#8217;ll need to go back and completely rewrite every page. ONLY NOT NOW. You have to go on. (Tomorrow: my number one bugaboo: why I question the act of writing fiction itself.)<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>In my novel, The Dead Celebrities Club, I&#8217;m trying to work out if people are capable of change. I&#8217;ve always believed that people evolve rather than change. 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